Archive for May, 2013

Every feeling

The moment I met you I have thought you were the one

the moments we shared were more than just an ounce of my love

I stare at myself in the mirror to see a broken heart

I look at the face of the one I have loved and wondered about the things

the things that I should have done right

I take a look at my life and I see it all pass by

I create the sense of that feeling

not because I want it but because everyday I miss it

its hard for me to express the feeling that I have for you

so I write this letter

Every moment, every laughter, every time

when I think about us I think about what should have,

could have, would have been.

It breaks my heart, it breaks my soul, the happy

person I once were will no longer be

because of the pain of every feeling that has every entered

this living being, that captures that essential feeling of love

is now and never will ever be in this persons grasp,

sad to say there are few, who will be happy, but I am not one of them.


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The right time

There was a time when I thought love was real

There was a time when I thought I would just give up

There are times when all I can do is cry

because we were hurt,

because we were burned

There many things in life that we should be thankful for

one of them are the lessons

the lessons we have been taught

every life, every moment, everyday

We take it, we believe, we love, and we spend everyday

regretting, when all we have to do is appreciate

we create a hole, we create a misery, when there are more things

we could be doing

The right time,

we never know when that is

so fly, sore and laugh like you have never laugh

find out emotions that you have never found

and just cherish one bit of every moment of every time

of everything.



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There are days when I hate you

but you know I really don’t

There are times when I really want to be with you

but you just seem like you won’t

There are things I want to say

but the words can’t come out

There are times when all I want is to feel

the things I want to feel

but I’m numb

All I want is to cry

but its all cried out

All I want is to scream

but I’m all screamed out

All I want is just to disappear

because that’s how you make me feel

All that mattered to me was you

but the question is did I ever matter to you?

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Second Chance

I have opened myself to love ones again but it did not turn out the way it should have

I try to forget the hurt but it hard

The pain that he has put me through was the epiphany of my own agony 

I couldn’t I wouldn’t I shouldn’t I can’t grasp it all

I cried and cried until I could feel nothing

I try to anguish and exterminate the pain that you have put me through

Every second chance every word, every apology you have made was all a lie

You never were once sorry for anything

The things we did the memories we had were all just a flake of your lies

I put a smile on to show the world I wasn’t in pain

That smile that was once so bright is now so dim and can be a part of a conflicted hurt

I tried to make things work

I tried not to hate you or this pain

I tried to make things better for me to make me stronger

But no more will I be that person

No more will I ever be that one girl that have been hurt

I will not let you fill my sorrows and take the one thing that has always been mine all along

The only way to do that is to just let it go and let it be

There will be no more second chances nor third or last

I am done and I am never coming back again

I will strive to be the happy person I once was

I will wake up and be strong

This is not the end of me this is just the beginning we will no longer be and us

But just a you and I.



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